I crashed this weekend. Mostly because the temptation was around me, not because I wanted for something and I got it. We are moving in two weeks! TWO!! Wow! That came fast, so exited! Anyways, the law school does a family movie night every so often. Last night was the last one of the year, also our last one since Scott is graduating. It was pot luck dinner. I brought salad bar so that I for sure knew there was something for me to eat. It was yummy! Looked great! I had 8 different toppings and lettuce. I enjoyed a big plate! Everything else there was a no no for me at this time with the detox. BUT..I used the excuse that it was our last movie night. It was like a graduation party for Scott. I've been living on good stuff, avoiding the "bad" stuff for so long, I just couldn't help myself. I looked at all the food on the table and I tried to make good choices! I did. I had a small serving of the potato salad, yum. Then tried some crackers with it. Gave into the strawberry jello with banana's and strawberries that I made. Then Ellie didn't want her cookie so I ate it, which of course made me want for another one and I did. I also tried a small slice of the pizza I made. I love pizza, what can I say? So anyways. Luckily those weren't horrible choices, and it didn't affect my stomach at all! The only regret was giving in and not sticking to my detox! Oh well, moving on. Here comes Saturday, I'm going out for dinner with friends, luckily to Sweet Tomatoes. So, I did 72 oz of water from 9-noon, then 40 oz of vegetable juice from 1-3:30. I was sick of vegetable juice to finish the whole 72 oz I made.lol. After I made Scott and Ellie dinner, I was waiting for my friend to show up and in the mean time, I snitch 3 small cinnamon-sugar biscuits, I was getting hungry at this point and they looked and smelled good, they didn't taste as good as they looked, but I was hungry. I was hoping that having that would help me just get a HUGE salad, eat that and be good. Oh no! I ate my huge salad, then wonder over to the soups just to see what they have. My favorite, brown rice and beans(pinto), got a bowl, and grab some SUGAR FREE lemon mouse. The sugar free made it okay, right?lol. Well I ate that, and was pretty much wanting for more, not because I was hungry, but because it TASTE.SO.GOOD. and my body wanted what it cant have. I went back for a 2nd bowl, good thing it was a small serving. Then we sat and chat, I said, alright, we need to go before I give into the breads! My friends start naming other stuff we could get/go to instead. Bless there hearts, they were trying so hard to keep me on tract, yet make my night enjoyable. But then we sat there longer, which only made me get up and go for more! Darn it! We should have just left when I mentioned it! sigh...I got some bread sticks and another small scoop of lemon mouse. I was stuffed! We needed to go, because I was about to go for a brownie! I had no room for all that I ate! I was not hungry for all that I ate! It was a deprived alcoholic at a all you can drink bar! This time around I did regret it! The stomach pain was bad! We were 10 minutes from my house, and all I could do was get into fetal position and think about when I get to my house I'm grabbing the trash can and sitting on the toilet so it can come out both ends. Excuse the graphic descriptions, that is how I felt! I was fearing the worse. It felt exactly how it did right before my gall bladder attack in January! But this time I really think it was more my IBS then gall bladder, and eating nothing but salad, steam veggies, and fish for a few weeks and then all of a sudden all of what I had Friday then today, sigh....luckily right before we got to my place the pain eased up, went away and I no longer need to use the restroom, and I was just fine the rest of the night! I was going to enjoy some dark chocolate so as to avoid the grasshopper girl scout cookies that have been in my freezer for weeks, UN TOUCHed! but instead I gave in, then Elizabeth and Sarah broke out the jo jo's, darn you Elizabeth and your jo jo's! lol. I know, I am silly, you would think after the pain I had, I would have said NO WAY to the cookies, but instead I deiced that I had already cheated and ruined my day what is a few more cookies going to do, meh! Well, tomorrow is Sunday, that is when I re-evaluate my needs and set goals for the week, I am going to do 100% next week. I did it last week, I know I can do it! But you bet once I am done, I will be doing 1-2 day detox from here on out!
my name is Katie, and I LOVE food!!!
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