Good bye dear friend

 What's that? Something seems to be missing in this photo?

My latest addiction I need to break, the scale! I check every morning!!!! I have never had issues with it being a problem, but now I see that I am addicted and today was the first time it depressed me. My weight went up instead of down and it's all because of the joys of being a women once a month. I so want another little one, yet, I can't believe I'm saying this,  I want to be pregnant! You could give me a child tomorrow and say its mine forever and I would adopt it and love it like my own, and fulfill my want for another little one, but, it's the whole pregnancy and experience I yearn for right now and want. To feel that special little someone growing inside of me. But each new month when I get my special red gift from mother nature, I am only saddened more, and I think it hit me more then I would have like this time around. Maybe because of all the changes I am going through with weight loss, diet, detox, packing, moving, Scott graduating, leaving my Vegas friends, coming home to my mommy, family, friends, and so much more, it took a toll on me today and I said ah heck with my weight, and I gave into strawberry short cake for breakfast, FOR BREAKFAST! Heaven help me that I can make it through the next two weeks without giving in ANYMORE!!! It's not about my weight this month, it is about my health and that is why I am doing this detox, for my health, not my weight. I need to focus more on health, and less on weight. So... my dear dear friend the scale, good bye to the top shelf and you can come out to play on Monday's! Period! That's that! Don't even dare get down! Don't even look at me when I open the closet. Don't even think about  haunting me in my sleep. This conversation is through!