Scott and I were able to go on a cruise the first week of January. It was a lot of fun! It was nice spending time with just hubby, but I MISSED my daughter so much!!! I was so ready to be home with her! I learned that I LOVE being a mom, wife, sister, friend. I missed serving others, don't get me wrong being served 24/7 for 7 days was AWESOME! But it is great to be home.
The cruise was fun, but I took my friends "kick me sign" with. LOL.
Day 1- family drops us off at the airport, I use the girls room only to find blood. What? I KNOW the test were positive. HOURS later we arrive to the hotel in Florida, I pick up pregnancy test, maybe it was implantation blood. The box came with 3 test, with a bonus digital. I took two, the digital said not pregnant, where as the other one clearly showed a positive sign. Strange!
Day 2- We board the ship in Florida and kick back for awhile, while we wait for all to board. Come mid-day, miscarriage. I was sad when I found the blood the first day, but I just accepted that I read the test wrong, and I shouldn't get so exited and share with all until more time pass. When the miscarriage happened, I was actually somewhat strangely relieved that I wasn't crazy and seeing things when I read the pregnancy test. I do want another child, that I could see my self reading a test wrong out of excitement. I asked my husband for a blessing prior to our departure. I wanted to be blessed with health and knowledge to know how to keep my self healthy along with the baby. No where in the blessing did I sense I would miscarriage, but the blessing it self gave me great peace when the miscarriage happened, in other words, I know it was meant to happen, and I am very much at peace with it I know when the time is right all will work out and I will be blessed with another little one.
Day 3- Princess Cays. Rainy!!!! We booked an activity with the ship, which all activities happen, rain or shine. So we had to kayak in the rain. The rain wasn't cold at all, so I figured lets just do it. I was preparing myself for cold water, it was so nice and warm! It was refreshing. So sure, it was rainy, it was a small Island with nothing to see, just play in the water, but it was nice!
Day 4-Day at Sea. I was so sea sick! It started the day before. I wasn't that sea sick when we cruised Hawaii. I took some pills and sucked it up. We did some swimming on ship. Which was nice. They have a adult only pool in the sanctuary/quiet area so that was nice. We also celebrated our anniversary that day, which we went to one of the restaurants on ship. It was really nice, but towards the end, I was just feeling blah! My tummy couldn't hold anymore. But then my tummy was feeling more sick, then full. I ended the night throwing up all of my dinner, some diarrhea and in the medical center with the WORSE pain/cramp below my breast that i have EVER experience. The pain was an 11 on a scale 1-10! Mind you I've never had labor pain, but I like to imagine it was something similar to it. Because of my symptoms and the miscarriage the doctor took extra caution with plenty of test, testing my blood and urine. Everything checked out okay, and the pregnancy test was negative. He was worried about an ectopic pregnancy. But luckily that wasn't the case. He thinks maybe my gall bladder or gall stones. He recommends if the pain comes back to get an ultra sound to see whats going on inside of me. So because of my symptoms I was restricted to my room for 24 hours. Which also meant I missed out on horse back riding in the the ocean and the best island of the trip, St. Martin, now hubby is going to have to take me back
Day 5, another day at sea! This day was better and things seem to be on the up and up. I was sea sick, but took plenty of ginger pills to keep me going and lots of rest and relaxation.
Day 6- St. Thomas. No Kick me Sign this day
Although, I would have liked to have seen more of the Island. I get very antsy in cars. Mostly with breaking and fear of crashing. St. Thomas is in the USA, but they drive on the opposite side of the rode then we do. But the cars are the same, that was strange. Any who, it made me nervous to even watch the cars on the streets let alone to ride in one. There were little to no stop signs, they just honk at each other, a lot. So in other words I opt out on a rental car and we just walked around, so we did get to see some of the island but not all the history and so forth. If I knew what we were missing out on, I would have sucked it up and got the car, I'm such a baby!Day 7-Grand Turk. Another good day. This was actually a great day. The sun shined the whole day! No rain, which we had a lot of unexpected, strange weather. Grand Turk is a VERY SMALL island but nice to visit. Very poor, yet expensive place to live. They had a hurricane in 2008 which is still in repairing so the island is almost like one big junk yard. We took a bus tour of the island, it hurt my heart to see such poverty, and how this island came about and what it stands for. We even got to see a display on slavery, and that just makes me sick/sad. But over all we enjoyed the stop. After the bus tour we got to play in the ocean with snorkeling gear. After about an hour and hubby seeing a barracuda we were out of the water and back on the ship enjoying our night away.
Day 8- Another day at sea, and the last night of the cruise. The weather was cold! which resulted in a lot of cabin time, but we played cards, enjoy napping, and spent the evening enjoying the last day of careless eating and a comedian show.
Day 9- So the end of the trip made up for the begging and all was going well and I was getting really exited and thrilled, and really, REALLY ANTSY to see my little one! But wait, the kick me sign came back! The weather delayed the plane. So instead of first class with lunch and dinner and home at 6:30. We had our flight plans changed, which resulted in staying in the Florida airport for an extra 3 1/2 hours. We were able to get first class to Memphis, but it was a short flight with only snacks. I was getting hungry. Then from Memphis to SLC was 3 1/2 hours on a very small plane, riding coach, with seats that don't recline. Now I don't mean to sound snobbish, cause I am not. I could never afford this trip or even first class for that matter. I have very loving kind in laws that are giving and take very good care of us. So yes, coach is what I am use to, but when you just ended a week with a miscarriage, experiencing the worse pain in your life!, being restricted to your cabin for 24 hours on a cruise and missing out on the part you looked forward to the most, being sea sick more times then not, missing your baby like crazy! You would be sad and cranky about the mean ol' weather that bumped you down to coach and no food, and having to WAIT AN EXTRA 4 HOURS TO SEE YOUR BABY!. ;)
Our room
Florida, waiting for departure
While taking a look at the ship we found a sanctuary, with a pool just for the adults, a quiet area! It was awesome! Even had one of those machine that make the water move so you can swim in place. It was fun!
All of St.Martin I got to see since I was restricted to my room, thank goodness for a balcony :)
1 comment:
Beautiful pictures. It sounds like you had a nice time even though you had some terrible things happen to you. Good luck with everything. Hope you don't have gall stones, they really are painful. :(
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